Here is the dynamic testimony of a young college student who recently graduated from our Create in Me a Pure Heart program for women struggling with all forms of sexual sin. Listen to hear how her perspectives changed from wanting her boyfriend to get help, to her need for change.
I want to start off by saying that Free Indeed is one of the best things that has happened to me and my relationship with God.
I did the Create in Me a Pure Heart program and portions of the Wives program.
My boyfriend had cheated on me three times. The first time he said it was just a mistake but by the second time he confessed he was struggling with sexual addiction. I was devastated, hurt, angry and confused, so many emotions combined, but I wanted him to receive help so he could get better. It was ultimately up to him whether or not he would find the help and unfortunately, he did not find it. He ended up cheating on me for a third time and after that third time we both knew and agreed he needed to get help. In my mind he needed to get help for himself and for us. At that time, I was so clouded by my pain I didn’t think about how he needed the help mainly for his own relationship with God.
One day, my boyfriend was listening to the Christian radio and a commercial for Free Indeed came on. With the information he gathered, he took the right steps forward and reached out to Ted Robinson, the Executive Director of Free Indeed. I remember it was on a weekend because Ted got back to him right away which was shocking for me considering it wasn’t during the work week. Yet, here was Ted trying to help in any way he could right off the bat. They got to talking and my boyfriend told me there was a wives program I could enter to help with my own troubles from being cheated on. Of course right away I knew I wanted to be in this program because I really needed help. I had been cheated on by the person I love three times and the emotions I was feeling were not healthy.
A meeting was set up with Anna Robinson, my coach, and she explained to me how I was living in sexual sin myself. You can imagine how confused I was at first. In my mind, I was committed to my boyfriend and having sex with my boyfriend, society would not say that was wrong, right? I never strayed from him. Yes, we were heavily trying to not participate in any sexual acts because we knew it was wrong and that God would not approve of sex before marriage, but still I felt like I was not a sexual addict. I let Anna know my concerns and she assured me that this program would help get me to a better place with God and with myself. That it will give me the tools to stop having sex with my boyfriend and save that intimacy for marriage. And so began my walk down the narrow path with Free Indeed and thanks be to God because it was amazing and necessary.
Anna was there for me every step of the way. I fell plenty of times and she was right there with me to pick me back up. One of the things I am most thankful for is what this program has done for my relationship with God. Not only am I on the road to being completely free from sexual sin, but my relationship with God is at a place where it is strong and it is powerful. I cannot express how thankful I am. God placed Anna and this program in my life for a reason and I truly believe and know in my heart that this program has helped me open myself up to God. If I keep walking this path and keep growing and nurturing my relationship with God he is going to continue to give me strength and I hope to one day help another person as much as Anna has helped me. I am overwhelmed with joy knowing God is with me and he is there for me and he loves me. My God is amazing and he loves me.
I want to be a voice for anyone who is living in sexual sin with a loved one before marriage. Despite was society has told you and despite was today’s culture deems as normal, sex before marriage is not normal and it is not right.
Please seek out help to go down the right path. Trying to not have sex before marriage is not easy and I can tell you first hand that this program was not easy but nothing worth having is always easy.
Matthew 7:13-14 “Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is broad that leads to destruction, and there are many who enter through it. “For the gate is small and the way is narrow that leads to life, and there are few who find it.” Be the few who find it. -Anonymous Program Participant
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